Not Knowing How To Appreciate Somebody Really Hurts

When people who do not know the definition of appreciating you (me), or even think about you (me ) and only approach you (me ) only if they need something done, or anything from you (me), do not worry, what goes around comes around. Let nature take its course.

I always say this, people who are far away are always sweeter than the ones who are near and the ones who are near always get used, get volunteered into things, and expect so much more from, thinking you have time and can do things quickly. Unfortunately that is how it is. People do not realize I have feelings too, and I have so much going on for me too.

I am not complaining about doing things for others, and going out of my way to do so, but there is only so much you can do and then not be appreciated for it is absolutely hurtful.

This past week and for a while now, I have been so hurt beyond repair, my heart is aching so badly, to the point where I think about what happened when I go to bed, when I am sleeping, when I wake up, when I am going about my day, when I babysit, during when I am working, and even during my happy moments where I try to take it out of my mind. It is still there. I cried for many days and I have been so upset, disappointed on how people can be this way to others, especially if they are your own flesh in blood or whoever they are. It absolutely hurts like crazy. I really do not want to discuss what happened, but it hurts emotionally and mentally. It killed any spirit that I have left.

Its not so much about being chosen to be part of something precious and beautiful, it is the principle behind it and something to show gratitude, but unfortunately some people are not gifted with being thoughtful, and being appreciative toward others.

Well, I am not doing it anymore. Not going to allow others take advantage of me and take me for a fool. I really do not have time and energy for it anymore. Time to look after myself and go after what makes me happy, be with those who appreciate, love me for who I am, what I am passionate about and what I love to do with my own time. I have put my foot down. I am so tired of crying and being so hurt. Enough is enough.

A Wonderful Dream – It Was Fabulous – Was on The Late Show Jimmy Fallon

Last night and lately I have been having re-occurring dreams after I fall asleep and last night was just so interesting. I just did not want to wake up, it was so good and awesome. You know how sometimes you don’t want to wake up because a dream is just so fabulous and you don’t want to stop having that dream? Last night did it for me. It was so amazing and fabulous. I had this dream that I was flown to New York City to be part of and be on Late Night with Jimmy Fallon and we were discussing my upcoming documentary and then a movie that I will be part of, and acting with Matt Damon in a movie. It was so awesome. So then I was interviewed by Jimmy Fallon and he and I got along so well and we became great friends. So I had flown back to Canada, and a few months later Jimmy had called me and asked me to be on his show again and this time about other things and just coming by to talk about stuff about my upcoming projects and also being a guest star on Hawaii 5-0, then being on The Big Bang Theory too. So That was aired on Television.

As I was heading back to the Airport and I was heading towards my gate to get back to Canada, several people stopped me at the airport and recognized my face and said, Hey you’re Talin the woman who was on Late Night show with Jimmy Fallon and I said, yes that is me, and so then they stopped to take pictures with me, and ended up putting it on twitter and Facebook instantly and I got to keep the pictures. As soon as I had gone to my gate, even some of the workers at the airport recognized me. So I was on TMZ, and in the people, and entertainment magazines shortly after. Then after boarding my flight, coming back to Canada, I was landing at the airport and I had claimed my baggage at the baggage claim and as soon as I was coming out, other recognized me and until I went to my vehicle after being picked up, people were getting my autographs and I was being photographed with fans. It was an amazing dream and then as I went on Jimmy Fallon’s Show, I was on so many talk shows after and I started traveling more on planes heading to Los Angeles, Chicago, New York City and so many more places to do talk shows.

I just did not want to wake up from my dream. It was going so well. In reality I am a fan of Jimmy Fallon and his show. He does interesting things and I started liking him from Saturday Night Live and among his movies he has done. a Couple of my friends met him while at the Chicago Airport and they said, Jimmy is just one of the coolest guys they have met. He is so nice and very personable in person and hes a very chill and incredible person. I keep on having these dreams lately about being on these talk shows. It is crazy. Does it mean it is going to happen? Is there a meaning to all this? Because it is starting to really get to me and happily. I keep waking up with a smile. These dreams just keep on happening without my control. It feels incredible. What do you think it means always being in the spot light? What do you think about what it is? I don’t know, but it would be amazing if it really happens. I would be on cloud nine.

What dreams have you had? Have they come true? Do you have dreams that almost always come out? Would love to hear about them. Wishing you the best.

I Keep Having Dreams On Being On Talk Shows

For the past few months, I have had these dreams where I have been on so many talk shows such as “The Talk” “Ellen DeGeneres” Rachael Ray” “Marilyn Denis”. Those dreams keep on re-occurring. A lot of the times now, my dreams are coming true. Whenever I dream on something while I am asleep,  It usually comes true within one or two weeks of me having it, but this one not yet, but I know it will happen sooner or later. Now the story of my dreams are about getting on these shows to make a difference in the world, how to keep preventing bullying, among other important things, as well as discussing my blog. All these things came into the picture and I did not want to wake up from my dream. It was amazing and how many peoples hearts I touched in it, and how many people around the globe watched the shows and were really moved by it and how happy and how nice people were and all the feedback I had received on the aftermath of when I went on these shows. It has been several months now, that these dreams keep popping up while I sleep and now its becoming more frequent. I am always dreaming on the same things over and over again. It is pretty nice. I hope one day it comes true soon. I want to do this for everyone, I want to get out there, raise more awareness, I want to do a lot. I do not just want to sit here and and just keep writing, I want to actually go out there and do the best of my ability to make bullying gone and to come up with ways to do so.

Now in my dreams when I go onto “The Talk”, I had spoken to Ayesha Tyler, Sharon Osborne, Sara Gilbert, Sheryl Underwood and Julie Chen, and they were all so wonderful to me and I did not want to leave that dream I had, and then a couple of weeks later I remember getting on “Ellen DeGeneres” “Rachael Ray” “Marilyn Denis” and they all were different and so many audiences viewed the shows and it was just so pleasant. I just hope I can one day be noticed by them and make those dreams a reality that I have when I sleep.

All these happen when I sleep, not before I go to bed imagining it. I am hoping to go to at least one of them.

May all your dreams and wishes come true to everyone.