What Will I Do If I Win The $1.5 Billion Powerball?

As you may or may not know by now about USA’s $1.5 Billion Powerball lottery jackpot that is up for grabs and one or couple of lucky winners will get to have a serious amount of cash in their bank accounts, and live off only just the interest and be set for life. Even hopeful Canadians are crossing the border to get their hands on the winning ticket numbers.  Of course as well as all that cash

Now, some people dream of buying a huge yacht, a private aircraft and other super luxurious things, go to the biggest and most expensive hotel suites, spending ridiculously and buy the most expensive watches, clothing,  handbags, shoes, jewelry, and live in a super huge mansion with so many rooms, bathrooms, and spend it like no tomorrow and some will not even know what to do with all that chunk of cash. Just because someone has a huge load of cash, doesn’t mean the money should be spent on foolish things and not on materialism.

Money of this amount should be spent on the betterment of this world, to make life better, to spend it wisely on things that matter. Not of what some people’s wild fantasies could be of just being luxurious and way too materialistic.

Now that If I get a ticket and IF I win, I will donate to villages in my home country Armenia, help my family and friends, personally go to third world countries that live in poverty and donate money, food, clothing and everything to people who need it.

I will open up a community centre for people who have been victims to social abuse and those who have been bullied emotionally, mentally, physically, also people who are alone and haven’t got too many friends. I want them to have that chance to come together with others and make life better for them and to make a difference in this world, where they can come and have fun with group activities, getting to know one another. Putting a smile on these people’s faces from young to the elderly is all the payment I need. They will be the true winners at life and to give them that extra boost that everything works out for them.

Now, that is the true lottery and jackpot that is won. Making a difference in lives, making someone’s day, life, seeing them smile, being happy, healthy and so much more.

From experience in my life, I have been there. I have been a victim of bullies, social abuse and the difficulty of people accepting me because I am and look different than everybody else. I will be happy knowing I have been able to help people in need with that amount of cash.

The rest, I will use for traveling to places I have not been to, buy a nice decent size house and not as huge as a villa or mansion. Just something reasonable, then live comfortably.

At the end above all that dough, health is wealth.

What will you do with that much money? If You do win it?

Feeling Very Nostalgic Today

Today during the morning hours as I was listening to music from the past on my iTunes playlist which was Adiss Harmandian and International Vatche who are Armenians who sing a variety type of songs, I felt very nostalgic. It also brought back many emotions and happy thoughts as I was remembering highway 401 East and a cottage we used to have in Eastern, Ontario, Canada, a town named Tweed and the countless amounts of times we would drive to Montreal and a couple of times I drove on my own.

Now, you are probably wondering why the music is involved in this, is because they were the artists that we would listen to in the stereo in the car when we would drive down. It never missed. These singers would always be involved and included in our road trips to the Cottage, Montreal and abroad.

The Nostalgia was kicking in even more when I was scouring through the internet for images of the town, the cottage we used to own, highway 401 East, and it went as far as the service centres and things we would see on the way like The Big Apple on the south side of the 401 on exit 497, Percy St. Do not confuse it with The Big Apple in New York City.

I know you are also wondering why I am having nostalgia over a highway. Well, Highway 401 East from Toronto all the way to Quebec has a sentimental place in my life and in my heart and it will always be a special place to remind me of the great drives we have had, and I was crazy at one point in driving in the worst possible snow storm which took over 7 and a half hours to get to Montreal, where on a normal day, would take about 4 and a half hours. In Montreal, I have plenty of friends and I would go and hang out with them every 2-3 weeks. I went about 35 times in one year, and that does not even cover the rest of the years.

So, today all those thoughts and memories came back to my mind and it was a great feeling. It has been about 3 and a half years, I have not been back to Montreal. Just that life got a whole lot busier, a lot of work, and I have traveled quite a lot as well to so many destinations, that I have lost count and now, I am so occupied with my work in Social Media Marketing, and also being a professional in it.

The Nostalgic feeling will never go away, and I will always remember the good times. I am going to make a trip to Montreal and Tweed, Ontario once the winter goes away and spring comes. I definitely need to make a trip there. I just want to drive and I just want to see my beautiful people there and go back to where my Cottage used to be and relax by lake Stoco.

I have written Articles about Tweed, Ontario, the Highway 401 and more… To read, them simply search my blog on the top right side of my blog page above my Facebook Fan Page. Thank you.

Have you had a great nostalgic moment in your life?

Would love to hear from you.

All the best.

Not Knowing How To Appreciate Somebody Really Hurts

When people who do not know the definition of appreciating you (me), or even think about you (me ) and only approach you (me ) only if they need something done, or anything from you (me), do not worry, what goes around comes around. Let nature take its course.

I always say this, people who are far away are always sweeter than the ones who are near and the ones who are near always get used, get volunteered into things, and expect so much more from, thinking you have time and can do things quickly. Unfortunately that is how it is. People do not realize I have feelings too, and I have so much going on for me too.

I am not complaining about doing things for others, and going out of my way to do so, but there is only so much you can do and then not be appreciated for it is absolutely hurtful.

This past week and for a while now, I have been so hurt beyond repair, my heart is aching so badly, to the point where I think about what happened when I go to bed, when I am sleeping, when I wake up, when I am going about my day, when I babysit, during when I am working, and even during my happy moments where I try to take it out of my mind. It is still there. I cried for many days and I have been so upset, disappointed on how people can be this way to others, especially if they are your own flesh in blood or whoever they are. It absolutely hurts like crazy. I really do not want to discuss what happened, but it hurts emotionally and mentally. It killed any spirit that I have left.

Its not so much about being chosen to be part of something precious and beautiful, it is the principle behind it and something to show gratitude, but unfortunately some people are not gifted with being thoughtful, and being appreciative toward others.

Well, I am not doing it anymore. Not going to allow others take advantage of me and take me for a fool. I really do not have time and energy for it anymore. Time to look after myself and go after what makes me happy, be with those who appreciate, love me for who I am, what I am passionate about and what I love to do with my own time. I have put my foot down. I am so tired of crying and being so hurt. Enough is enough.

The Last Time I Checked, This Is My Blog, & I Write About What I Feel

In the last few days I have received a lot of terrible comments from people who are clearly jealous of me and that is fine, and I see jealous written all over their comments, but last time I checked this is my blog where I want to express my feelings and my life, and I like sharing with the world, and I like to talk about my life experiences, and talk about issues of our world. I will not let some insensitive comments ruin me and my mood. I have dealt with too much since I was a kid and I will not let people effect me. I love my supporters, my family, my friends, and my fans. They are the ones who matter to me most. There will be haters, and there will be jealous people all the time and that is fine, be jealous of me, but I will not stoop to those peoples level who try to bring me down, but that is not going to happen. They can run their mouths as far and wide as they can, but that will not get to me, and I can care less about people who give me negativity, and pessimism, all I can say for those people who bring me down, all the best to you, but you will not overpower and dominate me and my feelings.

That is not going to happen. Last time I checked I am human, I make mistakes like the rest do, and I am not perfect and I do not see myself as perfect, but at least I write about important issues of our world especially when it comes to social acceptance, social topics that need addressing and sometimes what I say, the truth definitely hurts and some people do not want to admit it. I have seen my fair share of terrible bullying toward me, I have experienced it all, and I have been through some of the most terrible moments in my life and I don’t expect anybody to understand my feelings about it, because people think they know, but they have no idea until that person is in another persons shoe. I will not let people’s terrible judgement toward me get to my head, because those people who are judging me in a terrible way and writing these comments obviously are jealous and they want to hide behind their computer and say all these nasty and mean things, but in reality they are so insecure of themselves and they feel the need to make fun of others to hide their true self.

Jealousy can do a lot damage, and its not good. I write blogs because I feel good about it, I write blogs because its something I passionate about. I know sometimes my grammar is not all up there, but this is how I feel comfortable writing, this is how I want to express myself, and for the record I did apply for school this coming year for writing and journalism and I got in because I had the top notch grades back in high school and in my first few years of college. I did not let bullies and people who terrorized me get in the middle of my studies. I went to school, got good grades and I did not let stupidity get into my brain while studying. its been almost 10 years since high school and its getting better and better all the time. I do not expect people to understand me, but never judge me until you really know me. Yes you get to know me and my ideas and thoughts through my blog, but that does not justify anything. Internet and meeting someone in person is a whole different ball game.

So please the next time someone decides to write a negative thought, think before you write, you can do a lot of damage to someone who has been through a lot of terrorizing and being bullied most of my younger life. People do not understand that. I am not trying to offend anyone, but really last time I checked its my blog and I write what I want to express on what is happening. I do read a lot online and I do go out in the real world, and I have a big social life and I see everything that goes on, I see the way humanity has become, and I see the way people carry themselves out, and I blog accordingly.

Blogging is what I am passionate about and I make it a goal to write everything, I am not letting derogatory, insensitive, and negative comments destroy my dreams and what I love doing.

 

Tonight Was A Big Wake Up Call For Me — Thanking God For Making Me Realize Things

Tonight, I embarked on my last journey to Bible Study on Thursday Nights. It was an emotional night for me as I was enjoying the bible studies, enjoying hearing God’s words from our incredible and very nice priest Rev Father Keghart Kosbakian (KEH-GHART KOS-BAK-IAN). He taught us so many things from the book of Genesis to Exodus and so much more. We embarked on many trips to Kingston, Ontario for our Annual weekend trips. More over, I really enjoyed the fellowship, meeting new friends, and hanging out with them outside of bible study. I am excited to keep in touch with everyone outside of bible study. The sessions have wrapped up due to summertime where everyone takes vacations, and spends more time outdoors. Plus our wonderful priest is embarking on new adventures in Cambridge, Ontario, Canada and will be doing a lot of work there. Hopefully Our bible study returns back in September.

This year and the past years I have been coming to Bible study, I learned so much about my spiritual self. I know yesterday in my previous blog below, I wrote somethings that I shouldn’t have brought up, and it is not fair that I said some things out of turn. Yesterday was one of the days where I just wanted to vent out and I apologize for having been way overboard with my self-promotion of my blogs and going crazy with advertising it so much and asking friends to do it. I mean out of their hearts and thoughtfulness, they would do it anyway, without me even asking them, but then again I am so sorry to those who I became bothersome of it. I asked God tonight to give me patience, and to give me guidance and help me. I believe that he will answer my prayers and that whatever I am working hard on will eventually pay off in the end. I just need to learn to be more patient, and pay more attention to others as much as I can. I know I came off angry in my post and I rarely do get angry about anything, and I am so sorry.

My blogs are supposed to be about positivity and giving people hope, giving people that boost of happiness among optimism and among other things. Again I am sorry I acted the way I acted yesterday. I made a mistake and I am not going to repeat my mistake as I have learned from it. When the last bible study was going on, I kept thinking to myself, and doing my own self-reflection and how much I learned in so little time and reading peoples comments was in my brain all night. You all have no idea how much you mean to me, you all have no idea how much I honor, respect, and love Family, Friends, my fans, my followers, my subscribers, my supporters of my blog among everything else. I know I do not comment a lot on others blogs and I should really start on doing so. It is not fair to you all, and again I am sorry.

All the best to everyone, I wish you all the best in your success, I wish for all your dreams to come true and always believe in yourself and be who you are. Peace, Love and Respect to all.

Never Let Anyone Bring You & What Your Passionate About Down

Today, I had a battle with someone on my Facebook friend’s list who should have never been a friend at all in the first place, who criticized me and sarcastically asked me a snide question which I really didn’t like on why I have to post about a retreat Armenian seminar I am going to this weekend 10 times? I can sense the sarcasm instantly with the tone of the way the wording was and how it was brought to my attention. Well, it is obvious and she should have common sense that not everyone sees something instantly on their news feeds on Facebook, so I need to keep promoting it because there have been times where people don’t see what I post. I mean, last time I checked it is my Facebook, and its not like I am posting anything bad. I can post what I like, and post anything that I want. I do not need anyone’s approval or permission to post what I am passionate about and what I am devoted to.

Never let others dictate your life, never let others decide what you like and don’t like. I am passionate about Taking care of my house, taking care of my family, My friends,  and I love the Highway 401 East in Ontario, Canada, Montreal, Transport Trucks, Traveling, Driving, Cooking, Cleaning, I am also passionate and dedicated to making the world a better place with no bullying, with no hate, with loving each other, with happiness, positivity, optimism, enthusiasm about life and everything that is beautiful about this world with the people in it. I will not let somebody tell me what I should and should not like, and I am not going to let another persons jealousy take over me. That girl is obviously so jealous of me and what I stand for and what my beliefs are and she is so intimidated by me. Those are types of people that are not true friends to me. I had to delete her off my friends list today. It came to that point where I drew the line, that she crossed over big time. One little snide comment can mean a bigger thing and she wanted to say in such a fashion not to offend me in anyway, but I know where she is going with that and I knew she meant it the way I know she meant it.

One thing I cannot stand is sarcastic snide remarks. I believe everyone is free to like what they like, and if people have that problem, then they should not be your friends in the first place. People should accept you for who you are, and not what you like. Today I just got so tired and had to put my foot down. She did not message me privately about it, she had to write it on my Facebook feed for everyone to see, but My good friends and my family backed me up big time, and I want to thank those individuals for helping me through this ordeal today. I deleted the whole conversation, I deleted her off my friends list. I do not need people like her burning me like that and making cruel remarks. If someone appreciates you for you and supports you in everything, that is a person to keep. I am so glad I had to do what I had to do today. It was as easy as one click, and poof gone. I said enough is enough. I had to put my foot down. I couldn’t handle it anymore. I need to review my friends list and spend a couple of days analyzing those who are worth to keep on my friends list and who are not.

I am just so tired of people bringing me down with the things I like. The things I like are not bad. Who would have thought liking a highway, traveling, cooking, cleaning, Montreal, Transport Trucks and trucking, Driving and other things I like would be so bad and people having a problem with it? I mean what in the heck is wrong with society? Yet people like bad influence shows, yet people become fans of shows that are such a disgrace to society like Glee, Jersey Shore, and all those shows that are on Television nowadays. People are passionate about that and I just don’t understand why people think they are even great things to watch? And yet the things I like get put down. I mean yes, everyone is entitled to like what they want to like, but again nobody should be bullied and nobody should receive snide remarks.

I needed to get this off my chest tonight. It really made my day gray, but my family and friends helped me get through it today and I feel better tonight. Thanks everyone.

I love you!

 

Being Used, Then Put To The Side When Not Needed Anymore…

Lately, I have been feeling really used by people and its not a pleasant thing to go through. I have been through so much in my life like people bullying me, and keeping me left out of things in peoples lives and all that was a thing of the past, but now I am dealing with another dilemma, and that is people using me. I am only approached to if people need something, then the rest of the time, they act like they do not even know you, and say who is she? It is really a terrible feeling and I hope nobody else has to go through those problems. I myself have been there so many times where people wouldn’t give you the time of day, but conveniently they are there when you are needed.

I must learn to put my foot down, my good nature and soft heartedness, I am always end up doing it for them. Now that Facebook, Twitter, Youtube is out many people ask me to advertise they’re links and I do it, but there is a limit. There is this quote which I really love but do not know who the writer is, but it says: “Never make people a priority, when you are just an option to them”. I should take that advice and words of wisdom and put to good use. I should say no once in a while, it won’t hurt me. I will just find out who my true friends are by just doing so. I know there are still great people in this world, but very rare to find these days and very rare to find people whom do not use others.

Now days, whenever I see pictures of people having fun with each other on facebook, they are at a party, then I have to find out after the fact of that gathering or something and it is extremely hurtful to me and feeling excluded from things is not something that I feel good about. I cannot even begin to think how many times I have cried myself to sleep, thinking I am just a book that is read and put back on the shelf and not needed anymore, or those clothes that have been worn and put back in the closet to never be worn again. Its terrifying to feel this way and its not a great feeling at all. All the times I have been bullied, and put to the side when I was a kid, comes back to haunt me and no matter how much we try to forget it, it always there. It just doesn’t make sense to me and I am still trying to figure it out.

I want to have fun in my life, I want to put all those bad feelings and put them in the past and start fresh, but its not happening for me and sometimes all I want to do is just have some fun, and be invited to gatherings, be invited and have great conversations with people whom I know, not just one or two word conversations then I get put to the side and I am not noticed all night and I am just there by myself where nobody would talk to me for long periods of time. Its crazy. I do have friends now and everything and I am greatful to that and I have people whom I go out with Friday nights and stuff, but I am just so tired of being used then put out to the curb on Garbage day because that is how I feel at times and its just so ridiculous. I do not get why people have to act this way to other people. Its not a great feeling at all and I know all of this first hand. I hope nobody else has to go through this.