When I was a little girl, I used to always dream of my fairytale wedding and I admit, I still do even though I do not have anybody in my life right now, and I never have yet. I believe it will happen to me when I least expect it. Sometimes I feel like I am not attractive enough for guys, but I know in my previous blog post I wrote about you are beautiful no matter what anybody says and I always think positively, but I do admit sometimes negativity takes over, but as soon as those feelings come to me, I snap out of it and think positively that my prince will soon come to me and he will think I am the most beautiful to him and I am really important to him and he loves me with all his heart, mind and soul, with someone who will protect, care and appreciate me for who I am. I hope I will find someone who both of us have that special chemistry and we have a lot of things in common. Everyday I wake up, I am hopeful I will find that special someone who shares the same qualities as I do. I am looking for someone honest, straight forward, funny, someone who is fun, who likes to travel, who has respect and appreciation.
Anyway, Let me tell you a bit about how my childhood dreams of my ultimate wedding. I used to take my moms white see through drapes, and I used to use them as a veil. I took my moms white gown and used it as a wedding dress, I took silk flowers from the house and made it into a bouquet, I would go into my mothers make up drawer and used to put lipstick and blush to look like a bride. When I was a kid, I used to have a toy princess Tiara and I used to put that on, then I wore my moms shoes. In my old house, I had a long hallway and I used to pretend I am walking down the Aisle and I used to have an imaginary fiance/husband, with bridesmaids, and pretend guests. It was so fun. Since I didn’t have friends when I was a kid outside my home from school and stuff, I used to have these imaginary friends and I used to invite them to my wedding and then after, I would put some music in my room and pretend I am dancing, then I threw my bouquet. After attending many weddings when I was a kid, I was very observant and I used to watch very closely so as I can play it at home. I had such a blast doing so. It made me feel like a princess for that hour. I used to do that every few days, then I grew out of it by the time I reached 11-12 years old. My mom saw me a few times and she thought I was the cutest little bride ever.
Right now at my age, I still have thoughts on my dream wedding and my criteria has changed a lot of course on how I want the colours to be, bridesmaids, maid of honour, best man, the photos, limo, flowers, invitations, the church, the decorations, my wedding dress, my hair, make-up, the whole wedding ambience. I love weddings. I have been a bridesmaid twice in my life and coincidentally they both happened this year of 2011. It was an incredible feeling to be asked to be a bridesmaid for the first time ever in my life and to take part in wedding parties where as in my whole life, I never got to be in it and I never got to be dolled up with my hair, make up and beautiful dresses. It made me feel so great and it meant a lot to me to be chosen. I know that the dress, the whole wedding day is just a day to get married, and the most important thing is after the ceremony and how your going to live with your husband or wife, and its important after wearing the white gown and having a special day with family and friends. The future is the most important part of what happens tomorrow and the sacrifices both have to make.
Now, I still have dreams to have my bridesmaids wear pink dresses and have pink flowers, but I came to like Purple Themes a lot better and Purple is such a beautiful colour for wedding dresses. Any Purple colour, mostly violets, lavenders. Its so beautiful. I want my bouquet with a mix of purple/white/cream pink roses. A big round bouquet, and my 4-5 bridesmaids wearing purple/violet dresses, and with them having white roses with purple, the church to be decorated with beautiful flowers on the chairs, and an arch by the altar, My dress to be like a ball gown, my hair done up with a beautiful tiara/veil, the photos of the wedding to be professional and a lot with different angles, and different poses for the camera, a nice beautiful stretched limo, the reception hall decorated with an array of purples/whites/pinks… My cake with thick icing, and on the top instead of putting the little bride and groom, have my future husbands name and my name fully put. Our first dance to be the song All My Life by KC and JOJO, lots of dancing, the food to be Armenian / Italian dishes, the centrepieces below eye level and something with purple/white candles with a circle of roses, the bouquet toss, garter toss, the speeches. I plan to get Married just once, so I want that day to be special, perfect and like a fairytale with my family and friends to share that special day with me and to have an incredible wedding party.
I hope I will get lucky and find my prince charming soon.