Trust has become minimal these days and relying on people is something so rare. The world is
changing day by day, people are changing, the society is changing, peoples attitudes and the way
life is now. It is sad to see how once people who promise to be by your side always, and promise
that they will always be there for you and all of a sudden those people whom you thought you can
rely on no longer live up to their promises. It is very hurtful to see people who make promises and
cannot keep them. Especially when you think those people are close to you and who you thought
would never abandon you.
It is especially hurtful sometimes when it comes from your own family or from best friends. I know
that everyone has their lives to live and things come up, but people should not make promises that
they cannot keep. I have learned the hard way. I have learned that when you want something
done right, when you need to get somewhere, you do it yourself. It is very important to learn who
true people are these days and its important to stand up for yourself no matter what the situation
is.
It is especially hurtful to come to terms on how some people say that whatever you have on your
mind, or you want to express your feelings, talk about problems and they say that they will be
there to listen, give you advice, hug you and tell you its going to be ok, or they give you some
words of wisdom, then they do not follow through. Its so extremely hurtful, and they are feeling
you will never forget.
You must learn how to stand on your own two feet. I have learned that in the end the people
whom you once thought that you can depend on, you cannot anymore. It is unfortunate but this
is how reality is. Many times I have been let down and many people have put me down and its not
a good feeling at all.
I hope that nobody has to go through these issues. I am glad I have people in the last few years
that have really helped me through the worst times of my life, but then again those bad feelings
come back to haunt you and its not a good feeling at all. I have experienced so much in my life,
so much rejection, so much angst, anguish, everything. It was terrible once I stepped out of my
home. I don’t know if it was written on my forehead or this vibe toward me was not right. To this
very day, I still speculate, and wonder why I was bullied, why people treated me differently then
everyone else. I have always been belittled and picked on and now trusting people is very difficult
for me.
To those who are going through all this and people who have gone through it, your not alone. I am
in the same boat.