Not Knowing How To Appreciate Somebody Really Hurts

When people who do not know the definition of appreciating you (me), or even think about you (me ) and only approach you (me ) only if they need something done, or anything from you (me), do not worry, what goes around comes around. Let nature take its course.

I always say this, people who are far away are always sweeter than the ones who are near and the ones who are near always get used, get volunteered into things, and expect so much more from, thinking you have time and can do things quickly. Unfortunately that is how it is. People do not realize I have feelings too, and I have so much going on for me too.

I am not complaining about doing things for others, and going out of my way to do so, but there is only so much you can do and then not be appreciated for it is absolutely hurtful.

This past week and for a while now, I have been so hurt beyond repair, my heart is aching so badly, to the point where I think about what happened when I go to bed, when I am sleeping, when I wake up, when I am going about my day, when I babysit, during when I am working, and even during my happy moments where I try to take it out of my mind. It is still there. I cried for many days and I have been so upset, disappointed on how people can be this way to others, especially if they are your own flesh in blood or whoever they are. It absolutely hurts like crazy. I really do not want to discuss what happened, but it hurts emotionally and mentally. It killed any spirit that I have left.

Its not so much about being chosen to be part of something precious and beautiful, it is the principle behind it and something to show gratitude, but unfortunately some people are not gifted with being thoughtful, and being appreciative toward others.

Well, I am not doing it anymore. Not going to allow others take advantage of me and take me for a fool. I really do not have time and energy for it anymore. Time to look after myself and go after what makes me happy, be with those who appreciate, love me for who I am, what I am passionate about and what I love to do with my own time. I have put my foot down. I am so tired of crying and being so hurt. Enough is enough.

Thanks For All the Fun & Laughs Jay Leno – I Will Miss You

Jay Leno what can I say? last night during the final taping and all this week, I am sure the emotions were running high at the Final Show of The Tonight Show. 22 years have come and gone with celebrities, politicians, awesome surprises, what a beautiful last show. As I hold back my tears, I can truly say that Jay Leno you made my mother and I laugh so hard with your awesome monologues, the headlines, Jaywalking, 99cent dollar store items, Jays funny¬† pumpcasting, coulda woulda shoulda, the most wonderful time of the year, and everything else in between. You began your show with Billy Crystal, and ending with Billy Crystal on your show along with the touching music of Garth Brooks. With all the tributes from the stars that came on the show tonight like Carol Burnett, Kim Kardashian, Oprah, Matt Damon, Bill Maher, etc… along with your final touching, heartfelt, beautiful speech really did it for me. I cried up a storm, I had a box of tissues handy. I definitely needed it. Jay the thing I liked the most, was that you really love your fans, and you made sure that your show was entertaining as possible and made everybody laugh, and have fun which did for me.

I stood up mainly because of your show, your headlines and everything else with Kevin Eubanks, Rickey Minor and the bands. As Mondays approached, I could not wait to watch your funny headlines among other things. Jay Leno I will miss you immensely and very much. Enjoy your time off and always know that I will always remember your show and I will always support, admire, love and respect you even when your off the air. Thanks for everything. I wish that somehow I could have been on your show and you would interview me. It was my dream to get on your show, it was a dream of mine to get to go see a live taping of your show as well, but that did not pan out and work out the way I wanted to.

Having talk shows, and the whole operations of it is extremely difficult, with getting stars on the show, the scheduling, the daily monologues, the designers, administrative work, getting the rights, set designers, getting celebrities on the show, politicians, as well as the studio use. It take a lot of time, energy, money and everything to make a show successful and 22 years is a long time for a show and Jay Leno was one of my favorites. I cannot believe it is the end of an era, Thanks for all the fun and laughs Jay Leno. I will miss you.

Now that Jay has passed the torch onto Jimmy Fallon, I would like to give a warm welcome to Late Night with Jimmy Fallon another person I truly adore, love and respect. Jimmy Fallon makes me laugh so hard as much as Jay Leno did. Best wishes to Jimmy and I look forward to his Tonight show. God bless you Jimmy Fallon on your journey and Jay, I would love to see your cars one day and meet you of course if I get lucky and come to Los Angeles for a visit. If I get an invite that is. lol. Thanks Jay and welcome Jimmy!