Farewell to Kristoff St. John – Neil Winters of Y&R

As you may or may not have heard, Kristoff St. John passed away unexpectedly in his home on Sunday, February 3rd, 2019 at the age of 52 years old. Kristoff was born on July 15, 1966, in New York City. He had 3 children, Julian, Paris and Lola. His son died in 2014 at the age of 24 of suicide in a mental hospital. Kristoff began to succumb into depression since his son’s untimely passing which drove him to the breaking point.

Kristoff played many roles on television and film from Hangin with Mr Cooper, The Cosby show, Sister Sister, Happy Days, Suddenly Susan and for 28 years, he was called Neil Winters on the Soap Opera, CBS’ The Young and The Restless. He played in over 1600 episodes of the Y&R.

His sudden passing really hit everyone with shock and dismay, His family, Fiance, friends, co-stars, CBS, the fans of the show and Kristoff. This past week, his final episode aired with a tribute toward the ending of one of the episodes of Neil and Kristoff. A proper and thorough celebration of his life and commemorating the loss of a very iconic character will be written up and aired in April 2019. Episodes get filmed way in advanced about a month or so before. They will need time to write and create the storyline to close the chapter of Neil Winters. In respect to his character, they will not be replacing him and recasting him as another Neil Winters which is very incredibly amazing. He will always be the #1 Neil Winters.

The devastation has really hit home, and especially reading a lot of comments on social media platforms of heartbreak, shock, and of course a lot of tears, cries, and emotional fans, friends, co-stars, cast and crew who have written, and who have created videos and who have been interviewed about Kristoff. He was admired for his great personality, outlook on life, humbleness, and would spend the time to communicate with his fans on social media. He would brighten up a room, some of his co-stars wrote, and so many incredibly awesome things that have been said about him.

I remember when I woke up Monday morning on February 4th, 2019, I turn my phone on and begin reading my newsfeeds and being part of the many groups of the Y&R, and as well as news sites, I read that beloved Kristoff St. John has died at 52. I said this has got to be some sick celebrity death hoax joke that you always hear about. I said this cannot be. I thought to myself that I first didn’t believe it, then out of curiosity, I googled his name and there it was, it was real. It happened. It took me a few minutes to process what I had learned. I began to cry uncontrollably.

I went downstairs to tell my mother of who I watch Y&R with, and she also didn’t believe it until I showed her too. I am still shocked and cannot process this. His photos are everywhere now and the videos of his episodes and other appearances have been flooding my newsfeed this past week. I cannot believe that someone who I grew up with all these years of watching can pass away.

These people on soaps become part of your family and they come into your home to spend time with them for an hour or a half an hour of the day and you feel like its real, you feel like you are next door to them and a story is being put together. You feel like you become part of their lives. We fans devote a lot of time to watching and these people who have been on these shows for years are people who become part of you.

Kristoff and I became friends on Facebook many years ago. To that, I had messaged him about meeting him at Canada’s Wonderland amusement park in North of Toronto, and then he messaged me back a few days later and then Kristoff added me as a friend and we began our online friendship where he would never miss saying happy birthday to me. He was like that. He made time for his fans. When he added me, I got so excited and I told all my friends and family that Kristoff added me and we are talking. It was such a surreal moment.

Depression, loss and mental illness are real. Its evident on how our lives can change in an instant when something terrible happens and we don’t know how to cope with certain issues and sometimes for some people it sets them off. It is important to always be kind to everyone. We may not know the struggles a person faces behind closed doors.

We truly have no idea unless we have been in that person’s shoes, but then again we can never be in someone else’s shoes because everyone has different ways of dealing with grief, loss, depression and mental illness. Unfortunately, sometimes peoples actions mean for them to cross to the other side.

It is very important to always be helpful and to understand. It is really imperative to always listen. Sometimes people need a listening ear to pour your heart out and the struggles you face and to tell someone what you are feeling.

I’ll never forget his radiant smile, and I will remember his role on Y&R and his family, friends, fans, co-stars and crew and I will definitely miss him a lot. Rest in Peace Kristoff. You are now with Julian and Mrs Chancellor (Jeanne Cooper), Co-star with Kristoff on the Y&R. Fly high with your wings in heaven. We will never forget you and your legacy.

Depression, Loss & Mental Illness

Depression, loss and mental illness is real. Its evident on how our lives can change in an instant when something terrible happens and we don’t know how to cope with certain issues and sometimes for some people it sets them off. It is important to always be kind to everyone. We may not know the struggles a person faces behind closed doors.

We truly have no idea unless we have been in that person’s shoes, but then again we can never be in someone else’s shoes because everyone has different ways of dealing with grief, loss, depression and mental illness. Unfortunately, sometimes peoples actions mean for them to cross to the other side.

It is very important to always be helpful, and to understand. It is really imperative to always listen. Sometimes people need a listening ear to pour your heart out and the struggles you face and to tell someone what you are feeling.

Certain circumstances in life changes us forever and we are truly not the same when all these unfortunate events of life happens and and when some people can be so rude, mean and bully another person emotionally and physically. All that adds up and it can put a huge dent into someone’s life and that will lead to someone’s breaking point.

It needs to stop and it needs to stop now! These people deserve a happy and joyous life they are yearning. We need to kick depression to the trash. It doesn’t take much to be kind and welcoming to others and treat everyone equally, to love one another and to give a helping hand, ear, and do great things in life so everyone can have a chance at happiness. Put negativity away and start to really be serious about how people treat people. Respect and love is incredible.

Put positive energy into those who need it. Put a real smile on someone’s face and make a difference in one’s life. It goes a long way more than you know. Optimistic approach to everything is the way to go.

Propeller’s Turning The Deep Seas

As I am on the deep sea, gazing on the horizon seeing the sunset, sunrise and the moon from afar. As I am sailing through the waters, I can hear the splash of the water from the ship, hearing the propeller’s from a distance, enjoying the sounds of the cruise ship, and taking in the pure clean air. I am on my way to the aft of the ship and can hardly wait to listen to the propeller’s do its work. A lot of thought and positive goodness comes from it all.

I absolutely love seeing the beautiful bluish colour of the water and bubbles around it and the occasional splash. I love spending time looking at it during the day, and as it gets dark, all you can see is the dark waters, but still incredibly amazing to hear and to feel it in your soul. It was amazing and my eyes were so relaxed and it was great. Often times, we are so invested into screen time, and when I went to watch the water turning, it was such a great way to relax the eyes.

I don’t see many people on cruise ships often admiring that part of the ship, and enjoying looking at the sea. Passengers are often couped up into spa treatments, massages, in the restaurants, bars, pool decks, and inside looking and buying things from the shops, but how often do we take aback from all those and simply go out on deck, take a chair, lounging and taking in the true beauty of nature and disconnect from screens and just take in the moment? I don’t really see it happen. I am sure there are people like me, but it is scarce.

With little time we have to spend with the vessel, it is important to take time to smell nature and appreciate each second we have onboard on one of the most unique and awesome ways to see the world and travel. The propellers that turn the waters of the deep seas are incredible and a huge marvel of technology, engineering and it is so powerful and incredly amazing.

Life on the high seas is definitely different. I feel the positivity, the happiness, the joy and appreciating the simplest and yet most incredible things onboard such as the propellers and watching the ship sail. Often times we are too invested in reviewing the ship with feedback, but I feel that some passengers need to up their game and to really reflect on nature and the sounds.

I remember having conversations with the master captain and officers of the vessel’s I have been on, and I couldn’t help myself with so much excitement to talk to them about the ship, to give them compliments, and telling them my story of the propellers and how much joy it brings me and my life just watching it all unfold. They had never really heard of passengers being so invested into the very interesting parts of it and going behind the scenes and actually exploring these mighty ships. They really appreciated what I had to say and to relate to their passion of these vessel’s.

So, the next time you get onboard a cruise ship, don’t forget to see the simple things and enjoy the moment and take it all in, to not be so critical and to fully live life to the fullest extent and to really hear the sounds of nature and to appreciate each moment that comes.

Cruise Reviews and Cruise Ship Travel

Cruise Ship travel is incredibly awesome. Most of the time the things we read online about cruise ships and other people’s reviews on them misleads people and There are always people with a negative approach to everything. Well, here I am to debunk those reviews and to tell you the truth from an honest traveller like myself. When it comes to travel stuff of any kind, I am serious about it. I don’t just talk out of thin air. Here are cruise questions people frequently ask…

Aren’t cruises boring?

– Far from it. Not boring at all. There is so much to do onboard that you have no time to be bored. Cruise Ships are built so big now, and with so much to do on many of their decks. You hardly have time to spend in your own stateroom. You do not have time to waste. Everything is fabulous and you enjoy every second of it.

Don’t you get sea/motion sickness?

– Now, with the ships new designs, stabilizers and the massive and huge ships that are built, you barely even feel the ship moving. Technology has come a long way.

Why do we have to be back on the ship an hour or half an hour before the ship disembarks to another destination?

– Ship crew needs half an hour or so to take off the ropes/anchors (on tendering ports), gangway disassembles, need to put ship equipment back onto the ship, and need clearance from the port to give the okay to leave the port. Captain and his/her officers are in constant contact with the port workers and pilot boat operators to leave the port, so that is why people need to be on board.

What if we miss the ship?

You need to find your way to the next port of call – call the emergency phone line on your cruise embarkation/disembarkation card and notify the ship of what happened. Sometimes ships do wait for passengers, but sometimes due to the number of people onboard the ship, they need to leave because of time constraints. If a ship is late in the port, they pay fines.

How do we know what to do onboard the ship or in a port of call destination?

Everyday on your door or in your stateroom cabin, you will receive a newsletter of events happening on the ship and excursions or whatever else. You will see dining times, the dress code for the day, theme parties, and amongst specials going on at the stores and boutiques onboard. It’s always great to participate in everything onboard and make it a fun experience for you. They also show you what entertainment shows are on for the night. Some cruise ships, you have to book the shows due to the number of people on the ship. Also, now cruise lines have Apps that you can download on your phone and it will tell you everything going on for that day. All you need to do is put your booking number and your name and you are good to go. Ask or research the onboard cruise line APP and download it before you go on board and log your information in.

Any other questions, let me know.

Cruise Ship Etiquette – Kindness goes a long way

A crew member of a cruise ship of Royal Caribbean went overboard. As you may or may not know, cruise employees get depressed and spend a lot of time alone and are always working and are away from family and friends for 6 to 8 even sometimes up to 9 months from home on the oceans and seas and different ports of call.

I’ve witnessed passengers that come on vacation being so rude to them, demanding and say the most terrible things to them. They work their tail off and I see how hard it is to keep up a smile from them, how they manage to seem strong but passengers add fuel to the fire sometimes and the crew sometimes get to their breaking point. These people sacrifice being away from home from months at a time and the only way to stay in touch is by phone and messages. It’s really hard.

Kindness and patience go a long way. Treat them with dignity and respect. The way you treat others does affect the way they work and serve. Some people don’t realize that. Cruise work is a lot more difficult than an All inclusive resort. There are a lot more people on a ship to serve.
These crew people go through a lot and they have to make a living to provide for their families they hardly get to see. They go home for 2 to 3 months then back on the ship they go.

Kind attitude goes a long way. It does matter more than you think.

Atlantis Hotel, Resort, Casino – Nassau Bahamas – Disappointing

Atlantis Hotel, Resort, Casino
Nassau, Bahama’s.
MSC Seaside Cruise — Last Port of Call.
January 18, 2019
Disappointing –

In 2002, when we were on Costa Atlantica cruise ship, we went to Atlantis and we were able to visit the whole facility and to walk around without being heckled and stopped by hotel security saying these spots are for people who are staying at the hotel and we need to see ID. Now, in 2019, we decided to go after many years later, and we were not permitted to access key points to the hotel. Oh yeah and unless you pay a large amount to enter everywhere its ok.

After a day of walking, taking a water taxi boat ride for $4.00 per person per way, we walked quite the distance to reach the hotel/resort, we were excited to be back on the grounds. Little did we know that almost all areas were blocked off, except for the Casino and the shops where they know they are places where people will spend money, but then some areas where you do not have to spend money and they don’t allow you through. We were so disappointed. We had told the security that we just walk a long distance from our ship to come to visit, and we get turned away.

We told them that what if one day we come and stay here at this hotel? Now, we know not to. It is so overrated anyway. We were so tired and the sun was shining hot. We said time to walk the distance again and go to the water taxi and go back to our beautiful ship and relax. It was absolutely disappointing.

Cruise Travel Inspiration — Cruise Ship

Did a lot of thinking about so many details while I was on my cruise… ⚓️⚓️⚓️

As I was looking at the deep sea/ocean sailing through the many miles of salt water, I can see fellow cruise ships from different cruise lines and sizes, cargo ships, and other vessel’s from afar wondering where they are going. I also noticed parts of land which belongs to the Caribbean islands as we were sailing to our next port of call. I Was waking up fresh and happy every morning way before sunrise to see we have reached another place and a couple of days of sailing on the seas.

I was taking in the fresh clean air of the sea spending every day on my balcony morning and night, just looking at the moon shining down on the water so clearly and beautifully admiring mother nature’s beauty and gazing at the sunrise enjoying the little time I have on the vessel. I was living in the moment, embracing life and how beautiful it can be.

Often times we are too invested in being too busy with life, and we don’t take time out of our lives to embrace life’s pleasures and how beautiful it can be. I was happy to disconnect from my device that week to really remember to enjoy the scenery without a screen in my face, especially when you travel and when you are on a cruise ship.

I remember saying a few words to myself in my head, and thinking about how interesting travel can be and there were so many different types of transportation we used during that week starting from a van, aircraft, bus transfer to port of Miami, a cruise ship vessel, a water taxi boat and a tendering boat(which takes you to shore from the ship that is anchored in the water).

When we were visiting Costa Maya, Ocho Rios, Grand Cayman, Nassau Bahamas and Miami all in a week, I said to myself cruising is the way to go and it’s such a great way to get around.

As I experienced cruising many years ago; the industry has come a long way since then with these vessel’s that are enormously huge and massive with thousands of passengers and crew onboard. The terminology and phrases used on ships are very different. I love the food, the entertainment onboard, the ambience, seeing different cultures and backgrounds, and so much more. I loved every moment.

Don’t even second guess, don’t look at negative reviews from negative people. If you ever get a chance to go on a cruise, please go and don’t waste any more time. Don’t even think twice about it. Just go. It was my 5th cruise and I can’t wait for the next one. Panama Canal is my next more than Europe. Europe is overrated and it gets tiring. Your life will change forever and it did for me. ⚓️⚓️⚓️