Trust has become minimal these days and relying on people is something so rare. The world is changing day by day, people are changing, the society is changing, peoples attitudes and the way life is now. It is sad to see how once people who promise to be by your side always, and promise that they will always be there for you and all of a sudden those people whom you thought you can rely on no longer live up to their promises. It is very hurtful to see people who make promises and cannot keep them. Especially when you think those people are close to you and who you thought would never abandon you.
It is especially hurtful sometimes when it comes from your own family or from best friends. I know that everyone has their lives to live and things come up, but people should not make promises that they cannot keep. I have learned the hard way. I have learned that when you want something done right, when you need to get somewhere, you do it yourself. It is very important to learn who true people are these days and its important to stand up for yourself no matter what the situation is.
It is especially hurtful to come to terms on how some people say that whatever you have on your mind, or you want to express your feelings, talk about problems and they say that they will be there to listen, give you advice, hug you and tell you its going to be ok, or they give you some words of wisdom, then they do not follow through. Its so extremely hurtful, and they are feeling you will never forget.
You must learn how to stand on your own two feet. I have learned that in the end the people whom you once thought that you can depend on, you cannot anymore. It is unfortunate but this is how reality is. Many times I have been let down and many people have put me down and its not a good feeling at all.
I hope that nobody has to go through these issues. I am glad I have people in the last few years that have really helped me through the worst times of my life, but then again those bad feelings come back to haunt you and its not a good feeling at all. I have experienced so much in my life, so much rejection, so much angst, anguish, everything. It was terrible once I stepped out of my home. I don’t know if it was written on my forehead or this vibe toward me was not right. To this very day, I still speculate, and wonder why I was bullied, why people treated me differently then everyone else. I have always been belittled and picked on and now trusting people is very difficult for me.
To those who are going through all this and people who have gone through it, your not alone. I am in the same boat.