As another year concludes next month, it is now time to think about what needs to be changed in 2012. There are myths and predictions the world will end in 2012, people even said that when it was going to be the year 2000. I really do not believe in that. In 2011, I had been going crazy looking for employment and something to do with my life outside of writing. I volunteered at an Armenian Saturday School, I took some courses in College last semester, took many trips to Montreal, and I did so much, but I want to crack down and get right toward to think about my future and to set real goals and accomplish them. I want to change my lifestyle and the way that I function everyday. I will make an effort to make sure physical activity is added to my daily routine. I feel so tired quickly and I just want to keep eating, but I know that is not good for me in the long run and maybe before 2012 comes, I shouldn’t wait for a new year, I should take action now of my health and my well-being and feel and look better. This is a lesson for me actually. This coming weekend, I will be a bridesmaid at a good friends wedding and after trying on more than 20 dresses, I finally found the perfect one for me and I felt so embarassed that most dresses do not look great on me because of my weight issues.
I decided to take action and that action includes getting healthy, dropping the pounds, and working toward my goal to get into nice swimsuits, to get into nice outfits and most importantly being attractive to the opposite gender and hopefully start a relationship with someone, settle down and enjoy life with someone. I am just so tired of being lonely and to be honest I have never had a boyfriend before, and I have never had a relationship before and its terrible. At my age, people are wondering why I am still single, but this is a wake up call. I am not getting any younger and the years and flying by ever so quickly, days are going by faster and faster and I need to take charge of my life now, and make better choices in terms of my weight, and finding employment. I need to stand on my own two feet and nobody will come to my door to invite me to work, I need to get out there more and work so hard and be determined to find a job and some sort of income for the time being until I find what I am looking for in my field. I cannot do this anymore and I need to take action now. I feel 2012 will be so much more different and I feel 2012 is going to be my year and I feel that it will be one of the best years ever hopefully. I hope to find someone in my life. I want a boyfriend, I want to have more respect for myself and I want people to notice me a lot more and when people ask what I am doing, I want to tell them I am working.
That is a question most people ask now, is what are you doing? Are you in School? Do you Work? Or Both… It will feel awesome to say yes I am working and I will do the best I can to do that and I will be positive and I won’t get discouraged. If at First I don’t succeed, I will try again and I will not stop.